I was supposed to meet with my psychiatrist today but I just can’t bring myself to do it. There’s less and less to talk about and I feel like a broken record anyway. And I get the feeling I’ve come as far as I can go with this person. We’ve tried every drug on the market, mindfulness, cognitive behavioral therapy…seems like the works. I have learned a lot so it’s not for nothing but I don’t feel 100% and I don’t think I ever will. Which is heart breaking for me. This probably the best I will ever feel and it ain’t that great.